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Browsing Archive: November, 2021

Let's ride the wave...

Posted by BoogyVamp on Saturday, November 27, 2021,
   It's one of those days where you just feel blah, meh, down. I don't wanna be here at work, I don't wanna be around people and I yearn for comfort but there is none at the moment.
   My daughter's on her high-horse and it just kinda pisses me off being looked down on as well as I'm just here to pay bills and that's it. It's a shitty feeling. I know she loves me, but sometimes I feel her mood swings like a blow and it's not cool. But whatever...
   My anxiety is up today, been shaky and I hate...

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Blah...😒

Posted by BoogyVamp on Sunday, November 21, 2021,

  I'll be so glad when my shift's over. Past couple of days have been shitty. I'm really tired of people's bullshit. There's times I wanna speak up, but I'm not about to get fired over bullshit as well as other situations going on, it's not worth the brick wall.

   Tired of hearing coworkers talk shit about other coworkers behind their backs and I know for damn sure when I'm not around I'm being talked about too, I really don't give a shit, but I don't like hearing it about others, it's not co...


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3:33 a m. Wide awake...

Posted by BoogyVamp on Saturday, November 20, 2021,
   Guess it's another night of no sleep. 🤷‍♀️ Oh well, guess I'll down some monsters and coffee today to get through the workday.
   I'd down those monster java mocas today anyhow, those damn things are delicious! I should really cut back though, no doubt drinking too many isn't good for me, lol, but I love the flavor.
   Freezing in my apartment, dying to turn the heat on for a bit, but I'll let my daughter enjoy her artic sleep before she has to be up for work, lol. Although it gets ...

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Another Sleepless Night, Oh well 🤷‍♀️

Posted by BoogyVamp on Wednesday, November 17, 2021,

  No surprise, another sleepless night, but I made myself productive this time instead of sitting in my thoughts.

   Not looking forward to work later today and having to close, but at least I'm off the next couple of days, so it's just pushing through today/evening and hoping it goes by fast.

   Kinda sucks that I'm tired that I could probably fall asleep now finally, but there's no point as I'd probably be woken by the people who've been fixing the roof and siding on my apartment. They've bee...


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Shit day, but tomorrow's gonna be a good day...

Posted by BoogyVamp on Monday, November 15, 2021,

  Today was a really shitty day. 😒

   I went off on a person on the phone, no doubt the asshole deserved it, but I don't like going off on people, it doesn't really feel good.

   Came home and took a long shower or mainly until the water ran cold which really isn't that long. Kinda felt like another fuck you from the long ass day.

   Tried to make light of the day joking around through text with my boyfriend this evening, probably went overboard, lol, kinda do when I just wanna laugh. More as...


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Lunch break...

Posted by BoogyVamp on Sunday, November 14, 2021,

  Today has been nuts so far. It's Sunday, I figured it'd be an overly busy start, but didn't help the malfunctioning of multiple registers and getting yelled at by multiple customers. People can be straight up assholes.😑

   I just suddenly laughed to myself thinking about the TikTok video my boyfriend shared about wouldn't bleaching your asshole be considered changing your ringtone 🤣. Why the fuck people would wanna bleach their assholes beats me, that's weird, lol.

   Is there a bleach ...


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Smiling up at the moon.

Posted by BoogyVamp on Saturday, November 13, 2021,

  It's chilly out early this morning. I'm awake, couldn't fall asleep, but for once it wasn't because my mind was on its hamster wheel or that I slept an hour then woke from nightmares.

No, for once, I'm awake smiling, feeling happy, at ease.

   And although there's a chill in the night/morning air. I'm feeling the warmth within and I'm looking up at the moon and watching it glow. 

   My thoughts tonight aren't of anything other than gratefulness, appreciation, feeling blessed, thankful, full of...


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Just meh...

Posted by BoogyVamp on Sunday, November 7, 2021,

  Forgot the time changed today. Don't really see the point in it. Just makes the day feel longer. 

   Today's been stressful and I can't wait until my shift ends and I can clock out. Off tomorrow gladly. 

   Should be trying to get the overtime, but just been too drained of the workplace, I just don't wanna be here more than I have to lately.

   Although yesterday didn't really have a choice, I worked from morning till almost close.

   I'm just bored with home and work. Work, go home, work, go h...


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Just chatter....

Posted by BoogyVamp on Saturday, November 6, 2021,

  Today's been ok, cleaned up my apartment a bit, but not much else. Kinda been lazy. Bored mostly. It's back to work tomorrow.

   Usually a have a set schedule for the next couple of weeks out, but lately it's been a day or two before last minute, even the night before of knowing what schedule I'm working for the next coming week which I hate last minute shit, I like to know what I'm doing.

   Ordered Chinese food, not sure I really care for it though. Although you bet your sweet ass the ragoo...


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Tryna stay positive...

Posted by BoogyVamp on Wednesday, November 3, 2021,

  I can't sleep, my mind's on constant overload and all I want is to be with my love holding him right now instead of this cold ass apartment. 

   Bought a magnetic thing to cover the vent since my daughter likes to keep her artic temp settings. Wasn't very fun trying to put it up to the vent on my ceiling being short. I felt like I could of won a gold medal in the Olympics for my acrobatics in getting that damn thing up there, but at the same time, won worlds dumbest in falling afterwards, bu...


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Don't feel like smiling...

Posted by BoogyVamp on Tuesday, November 2, 2021,

  The sun shines, but I don't feel it. It's like a haze of gray, a shadow of the day. It's the weight of the world bearing on my shoulders, but I'm fine, I'm fine...

   I'll carry it through the thick mud because that's what I do and that's what I've always done. Rest is not an option because I'm a fighter, a fighter not just for myself, but for those I love.

   The storms they come as the sun shines and the earth quakes and it's hard to stand, but I may fall but I'll always get back up and I'l...


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