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In my head today...

Posted by BoogyVamp on Saturday, June 25, 2022,
   Woke today just feeling blah. Got my wifi on, so that's a plus. 
Just one of those days I don't feel like doing shit. 
   Admittedly I'm struggling a bit today. I'm wanting a drink, but I'm fighting it. Guess when I'm alone and bored, feeling blah, just kinda hitting me today, but I'm fighting the urge. 
I'm taking meds to help with the urges, but today's just been hard. Tryna keep my mind off of it.
   Did check out one of those Zoom AA meetings my Dr suggested. I'm not much for group shit an...

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End of the day...

Posted by BoogyVamp on Saturday, June 25, 2022,
   Today started out ok. It was extremely hot. As the day went on, just kinda went downhill. Just one of them days I guess, where at the end of the day, I'm coming home from work aggravated, sweating on top of it feeling gross, tired and aches, just not feeling good.
   I was so annoyed and aggravated today that I think I freaked these dudes out hollering over this really loud squeaky flatbed cart to stop cuz I just couldn't take the sound no more hearing customers rolling around with the damn...

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Life changes, mindset, goofy thoughts...

Posted by BoogyVamp on Sunday, June 19, 2022,
   It's been a while since I've written here. Just haven't gotten around to it or felt like it lately.
   Yep, as you've probably guessed, I can't sleep. More as I kinda don't wanna go back to sleep after having vivid nightmares. 
   Decided to come home yesterday to give my boyfriend an evening to himself, some him time. I probably need to be doing that more often for him. I love being with him though, and not to say he doesn't love being with me, I know he does, but everyone needs some breath...

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Today's gonna be a good day...

Posted by BoogyVamp on Tuesday, June 14, 2022,
   It's been a while since I wrote. Life's just been on it's rollercoaster ride, but I feel like it's starting to go up now.
   Things are looking up...
   I took the steps for myself to stop drinking and I'm doing good so far. My mind's set on staying sober. I really don't wanna spend my drinking and missing out, forgetting moments, not being present and feeling like shit. 
We could be here today and gone tomorrow, we never know and I don't wanna waste it drowning in alcohol and not being fully...

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