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Kindness & gratefulness.

July 21, 2020

  The simplest things are the most grand, the most beautiful. The more I experience life, the more I am grateful for every little thing. You have to be. You can't live life in dismiss, if that's the right word to say. It's so easy to let our focus go onto what we don't have, but it's important to refocus on what we do have and what's even more important is, it's not of what we do have in "things", but in what we have in people, within ourselves, love and compassion not just for others, but for ourselves too.

   You ever just stare up at the ceiling in a quiet room and just be grateful you're breathing? Indeed, the mind has a force to take over, but sometimes just focusing on your own breathing mutes it, or more like turns the volume down a bit. 

   Or have you ever stared into someone's eyes and just feel a sense of peace and appreciation? So simple yet so grand. Like a smile and a touch. Like laughter and joy. That's the beauty in this world we should be focusing on. 

   Ask yourself each day, "What am I grateful for?", and write it down. Revisit what you've written in a week, then a month and then a year and you'll see how much beauty has touched your life.

   Even if the day wasn't good, maybe even a bad day, still, choose something to be grateful for. Maybe something as small as a cup of coffee or your favorite food. Maybe the rain or the sun. Just anything. 

   We've all had days that have torn us apart to where we could barely breathe, but those times are when it's most important to find something to be grateful for.

   And never sacrifice your happiness for someone else.

   We give because it feels good to, it feels right and we're compassionate towards others and want to brighten their world as well as keep them from pain. But, sometimes we have to look to ourselves and make sure we're being thoughtful, caring and compassionate towards ourselves, because we're just as important. It's never selfish putting yourself first. Let me rephrase that, it's never selfish to put yourself worth first. What we allow others to do to us is what will continue. It's a cycle that is endless and it's not good for anyone, yourself or the people around you if neither person is beneficial to the other in lifting each other up.

   I think we can hinder ourselves because we give so much ourselves. And there's nothing wrong in being a giving person, but if your giving so much away that it drains you, eventually you'll have nothing left to give. Those who truly care and love you will never take more than you have to give. If anything they will evenly give back or more without thought, without strings. Those who love and care for you will do anything to see you smile, hold you up when your down, empower you, encourage you and want your happiness above all else.

   Never sacrifice yourself or your self worth for anyone, not even the closest people in your life. Life is too short and too valuable to prolong a cycle that is unhealthy for your inner being. I've learned that the hard way and I'm at the point in life where I will love and care deeply, but I will love and care from a distance if need be and if I have to, kindly tell people farewell and I wish them well, but we are bringing each other down more than lifting each other up. 

   It's not easy, god it's not easy letting people you care about go because you feel incredibly guilty and don't want to hurt them, but truth and the fact of the matter is, you're hurting each other more staying in each other's lives than you do parting ways. I did that with a family member. Hardest thing, but not everyone is meant to stay in your life. Sometimes people are only meant to visit, but not stay. Especially if the growth and compassion for one another's well being is gone. 

   It's important to look towards the positive in each day and treasure life, appreciate life, love and care for others, but never leave yourself out or behind. Surround yourself with good people, the people who will build you up, inspire you and encourage you to be the best person you can be, people who won't try to change you, but support you in your growth throughout life. Time is of the essence, don't waste it away with unkind people. You are worth more than you realize. There's beauty in this world and everyone is meant for something beautiful as long as you're kind and compassionate towards others. 

   Be kind, be yourself, share love and compassion towards others, but take no one's bullshit either...

 

Be kind...

July 13, 2020

   The roads ahead of us isn't always paved. A lot of times it's dirt and potholes, rocky and unstable. But I like those roads. I don't want a paved road all the time. I like to know that the shittier the roads I've traveled and made it through has built me up.
   You see, if the roads are always paved, you never truly appreciate the journey or the drive.
   I know it's silly to compare life to roads and driving, but it's similar in a sense. If life is good all the time, we can't really under...


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Random thoughts

July 11, 2020
   Summer heat sucks gnarly ass. There's two things I don't like, the heat and the cold. I like Spring when the flowers start to bloom and it's cool out, but I think my favorite season is Autumn. I love the feeling of the breeze and although you can't see it in the south, I love the vibrant colors of autumn leaves. I've seen it as a young kid when I lived in Tennessee, but I don't remember it clearly. 
   I love trees, willow being my favorite and then oak and I love Spanish moss trees as ther...

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Coffee with the birds...

July 10, 2020
   Early morning coffee with the birds and squirrels...
I couldn't sleep, but what's new. As usual my thoughts took over. Funny how the mind works. You can overthink things and situations that aren't as complex, then think of random shit that makes no sense at all. If only there was a mute button I could push at times.
   I love birds, they're so pure and free as are many animals in nature. They don't need permission to fly, they just fly. You ever just lay on the ground and stare up at the sky...

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Lunch time thoughts

July 8, 2020

It's those days that feel like they drag, like a snail slowly inching along. But on the positive, having a cool goofy coworker makes the day better. Makes the day pass a little faster being goofy along with my coworker. I appreciate how awesome she is. I appreciate all the awesome people currently in my life.
   Lunch time is usually nice, like today, I always enjoy spending it outdoors, under the trees and sky. I enjoy finding shapes in the clouds. Looking up at what looks like a whale leap...


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To feel the rain.

July 7, 2020

   The sun is shining, but I don't care to feel it today. I want the rain, I welcome it along with the thunder. I'm craving to sit in it & close my eyes as I listen to its flow & feel its rundown on my skin, soaking me to the bone.
   I like the sun, but I've never been much for it. But the rain, the thunderstorms, it is a beauty of its own.
   You see, the rain isn't the sunshine nor is it the darkness, it is the in-between, the middle of darkness and light. The rain can be sad, yet it can ...


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Morning thoughts

July 6, 2020
Sometimes sleep is a distant friend. You love it, but it lingers in the distance; close enough for you to slumber slightly, far enough for you to wake sooner than desired.
   Do you ever wake early on your days off from work and just think about life-what the day may hold? Sure we can have plans or no plans at all, but in that moment, the days hasn't begun and you have no idea what the day may bring.
   I think about days before when I woke up unaware of what was to come then think about how th...

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Introduction/ 1st Post

July 5, 2020
So this is my 1st entry in this section. I don't know why I felt like creating another blog page, but I've been thinking about it for a while. 
  I'm not really one to share too much, so no, I won't really go into depths with life, but more as just sharing my thoughts. I think many of us can relate to things at times and at other times not so much, but that's the beauty in our unique human forms. We're different in so many ways yet alike in other ways.
   I'm probably not going to post daily in...

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