Maybe it's Time I Change My Ways
Posted by BoogyVamp on Sunday, June 19, 2022
Can it rain if the skies aren't gray
Somehow I'm empty at the end of the day
Oh I'm afraid to loose it all
I'm afraid to be left with nothing at all.
Maybe I numb my day's out
By every sip I swallow without doubt
That somehow I'll feel alright
Somehow I'll feel alright
So if the burn takes the day away
I can hide I wasn't really ok
No one will know that I was weak
No one will be able to speak
So I'll drown into my boredom and sorrows
Like there's no life to live tomorrow
Just sitting here wasting away
And I'll only have myself to blame
So if tomorrow never comes
And my heart stops its beating drum
I'll regret I have wasted these days
Maybe it's time I change my ways
The sun shines but the rain pours
How many times will I say no more
In this temporary lifted weight
Absentminded in this toxic state
Oh I'll say I'm ok although I'm not
Because through life I've always fought
I'll be strong when I'm feeling weak
When the weight knocks me off my feet
So if the burn takes the day away
I can hide I wasn't really ok
No one will know that I was weak
No one will be able to speak
So I'll drown into my boredom and sorrows
Like there's no life to live tomorrow
Just sitting here wasting away
And I'll only have myself to blame
So if tomorrow never comes
And my heart stops its beating drum
I'll regret I have wasted these days
Maybe it's time I change my ways
Oh the liquid poison is a thief
Stealing away everything in front of me
Oh I fell for its seductive game
But I only have myself to blame
I thought I was in control
Little by little it took ahold
While those I loved watched me drown
My selfishness kept swallowing it down
I'm ok, I'm ok
I was blind, I was blind
Looking in the mirror I say
Maybe it's time I change my ways
Maybe it's time I change my ways
Bring back clarity in my days
No more excuses
Living in translucence
Hiding behind usage
Life is what you choose it
Liquid poison always loses
Keeps you down and secluded
Dormant without improvement
Overthinking while you're sinking
So all the while you're tipsy and trippy
In the feel-good of continuous drinking
In reality you're going down
But you're too blind to see clearly around
Oh you're about to hit ground
Oh you're about to hit ground
Oh it's time I change my ways
So I'll no longer drown into my boredom and sorrows
I'll live life like there's no tomorrow
Stop sitting here wasting away
Stop giving excuses "I'll only have myself to blame"
So if tomorrow never comes
And my heart stops its beating drum
I'll have no regrets I didn't waste my days
It's time I change my ways
So if tomorrow never comes
And my heart stops beating its drum
I'll know I haven't wasted away
I've chosen to live the fullest everyday