No surprise, another sleepless night, but I made myself productive this time instead of sitting in my thoughts.

   Not looking forward to work later today and having to close, but at least I'm off the next couple of days, so it's just pushing through today/evening and hoping it goes by fast.

   Kinda sucks that I'm tired that I could probably fall asleep now finally, but there's no point as I'd probably be woken by the people who've been fixing the roof and siding on my apartment. They've been pretty much at it early mornings.

   Oh well, tonight I'll sleep. Hopefully cuddled up next to my love cuz I miss him... 

   Sucks getting off work late 😒...

   Just feeling blah at the moment. I miss my love, I'm tired and I really don't feel like dealing with people today. Just tired of the bullshit, the going in to things unorganized and all over the place when I don't open, tired of listening to complaints and anger issues from customers as if I was the cause or can fix everything or hop on it like I'm super woman or something. 

   Holidays are around the corner and business is gonna continue overly busy if not busier. It's been busier than usual after the hurricane. Don't see it slowing down anytime soon either.

   Don't get me wrong, I'm definitely grateful for my job and that I have one, but lately it's just drained me. And I like my new position, definitely enjoy it, but I wasn't the only one who got the position, 3 others and a lot of times our schedules put us together and it gets unorganized and some think they're over others which the "high horse" attitude doesn't sit well with me, especially when we are all equal in the position. 

   I'm just drained from it all... I don't like not knowing what the hell I'm doing, who's where or doing what and I sure as hell don't like searching for people just to find out what's going on just so everyone's on the same page...

   It's just a mess some days...

   I'm unloading a bit this morning, and I'm not gonna apologize cuz I'm keeping it real like I said I would in my posts before. If I'm having a shit day, I'm going say it. If I'm frustrated, I'm saying it. If my day's good, I'll say it.

I'm just not in a great mood this morning 🤷‍♀️.

   And if you haven't been following my posts for a while and are expecting that "everything's perfect in my life and I'm always happy and every day's a great day" kinda bullshit, you can find another website cuz that's not me, I'm not gonna post bullshit to make other people happy. I'm as real as it gets and that's how it's gonna be. Take it or leave it 🤷‍♀️.

   I'm not saying I'm not a positive person, I always try to keep a positive mindset, but some days, I'm just not feeling it and today's just one of those days.

   I could use a smile right now, I could. I could use a laugh and a good day. The day's just starting so even though I'm feeling blah, meh, kinda down, I'm still keeping that thought...

   ...Said I was productive since I couldn't sleep. I made something for my boyfriend, a lil crafting, I hope he likes it.

   I miss him...

   Maybe it sounds silly when it's only been a couple days since I've been with him, but I do, I miss him and I yearn to feel his embrace and the tenderness of his kiss...

   Hopefully I don't get out too late from work tonight 😒...

   Oh sweet love of mine, rescue me from thy workplace of hell and dipshit egotistical rude ass customers and unorganized chaos! I wait for thee! 🤗 Come daaawwwrrrling , whisk me away and let us throw our fingers up to the world and ride hairless goats into the sunset because I've never seen a hairless goat and I bet it'd look strangely funny...

🤔🤷‍♀️ 🤣 Yea, I'm asking myself wtf too. My mind is a strange place. 🤷‍♀️. I'm just goofy. Ya gotta find a lil silliness in your day.

   ...Now I'm tryna picture a hairless goat 🤣. 

   Hopefully I get to see him tonight...

   It's already going on 7. Maybe I should stop jibber-jabbering before anymore weird thoughts come out, lol.

   Until next time, I hope you smile...