It's one of them nights, I don't think I'm gonna get any sleep and even after taking a sleeping pill, I still can't fall asleep. 😕

   My mind's on its usual hamster wheel and it's funny I say that because I'm listening to my daughter's hamster running on its hamster wheel at this very moment, lol.

The hamster pretty much sleeps all day then runs on that wheel at night. I guess she's bashful about letting anyone see her running her wheel, lol.

  Luckily tonight doesn't feel as hot as the other nights have been, but it's not really all that comfortable either.

   There's still no power and I've lost track on how many days it's been. Well, it'll be 2 weeks Sunday and it's already Friday morning now, so 12 days.

   Still got one more day before I'm allowed to go back to work from being on quarantine for Covid. So gonna be bored out of my mind sweating today. 

   I wish I could sleep. My eyes are heavy, I'm tired, but I just can't sleep...

   I wish the power was on, but electric company is saying they're estimating power to be back on the 17th, still another week 😕.

   I miss my love right now, a lot right now and I wish I could just cuddle up to him and fall asleep in his comfort, but until the power comes back on, I'm stuck here😒... And for another week which will be 3 weeks cuz of fucking Covid and now fucking Ida's aftermath 😒. Sucks ass, really sucks ass...

   I wish I could just sleep, I'm so frustrated. I wish I could just sleep through the next week until the power came back on and I was laying beside my love cuddled up to him, skin to skin, listening to the sound of his heartbeat, squeezing him to me, feeling his breath on my skin, just feeling HIM... I just want to feel him... Be with him... *sighs*...

   I sat outside and watched the stars for a bit. They were pretty, but all I could think about is how I wished my love was beside me to look up at the stars with me and sitting alone without him there, just made the night feel dull.

  I got to see him earlier of course and I was so happy to see him, to hug him, to feel his embrace and to feel his kiss upon my lips and I cherish those moments. But when it's time for him to go, that last hug, I just wanna hold onto him just a little longer, touch and caress his gorgeous face in the palm of my hands and feel his cheek against my cheek. And as he's leaving, I miss getting to go with him, I miss him... 

And there goes my heart with him because my heart belongs with him and is with him wherever he goes as well as home. It's like being away from home when he's not with me, when I'm not with him, and when I'm finally back in his arms, I'm home again. He's where I wanna be...

   There's a saying, "A house doesn't make a home, love does", and I love him tremendously...

   I wanna sleep so bad, I feel so tired, but this damn couch is uncomfortable, my apartment is humid, I'm agitated, I miss my love, my eyes are heavy yet my eyelids feel like they were dipped in gorilla glue and glued to my forehead. No matter which way I've tossed and turned, I can't get comfortable, my mind feels like it's on overload going a million miles a minute with thoughts and I was hoping journaling would ease my mind a bit, but like a said in the beginning of this post, it's one of them nights I doubt I'm gonna get any sleep.😑😒.

   Guess I'll keep trying. I've written enough here anyways.

   Until next time, I hope you smile...