I found myself at a loss tonight. Those days you feel low and the past memories sneak up on you and punch you in the face as well as current situations.

      I laid outside and stared up at the moon and stars for the longest time and lost myself in overthinking. Then I decided to get up and take charge of my thoughts.

      Of course there's no changing the past. You can't erase what you've done nor can you bring anyone back from the dead. But sometimes you miss people and sometimes it wr...

  Sometimes you have to sit down alone with yourself and really think about life. 

   What is it that you're bringing in to your life?

   It's so easy to get caught up in the disappointments and not being where you want to be in life as well as getting caught up in other people's drama, especially when you can't turn away from the ones you love.

   We have to find peace within ourselves and to do that we must find appreciation for life.

   When we die, we can't take anything with us except the lo...

...How did we get here? How do we get anywhere?...

   I found peace staring at the oak across the street. Peace in the sky and peace in the grass beneath my bare feet. Peace within my thoughts for once as beautiful was far too great to let anything negative in.

   I found myself smiling at conversations in the night, found warmth in a compassionate soul connecting to mine. I was alone yet I wasn't because when beautiful hearts and souls share their beauty with you, there's no possibility of fee...

   This year is flying by. Now if only this covid shit would pass. I'm tired of masks. I'm tired of all of it. But i guess things won't be normal anymore. Or as they say, "this is the new normal".
   I'm in a mix of an appreciation mode and also in a look-at-the-ceiling-fuck-you mode. Weird mix, but my mind's all over the place tonight. Sometimes I despise my overthinking, then I'm like, nah, it's  the process of trying to figure things out.
   Trying to find the positive out of everything i...

   Simple question to ask yourself. What are you grateful for today?

   For me, I'm grateful for all the good people in my life who share love, compassion and kindness. Who accepts me for me and doesn't ask or try to mold me into their expectations. I'm grateful for their smiles, their views on life, their very being.

   But I'm also grateful for the not so good people as you can't have the good without the bad in life. I'm grateful for the lessons and growth I've learned. 

   I appreciate life,...

  Tick tock, tick tock, goes the clock. Can't fight the night, ya know that's right.

   ...Corny...

   Skimming through music and listening to music I used to listen to back in the day. From Coolio, 2Pac, Snoop, Bone Thugs, Notorious B, Warren G, to Elton John, Etta James, Eminem, Queen,  you name it. To now, Ollie, Maroon 5, Ed Sheeran, John Legend, Sam Smith, Billie Eilish, etc., and just smashing it all onto a playlist. Kinda been feelin old vibes with music lately. 

   I love the oldies, but...

  This morning I watched the sky change from night to day. The colors some days are more vibrant than others. Kind of like us, our vibrancy changes like the hues of the sky. But, it's kind of beautiful if you think about it. We're always changing, shifting.

   No doubt my thoughts were running again, but when aren't they. Some nights sleep is an enemy and some nights nightmares like to play. It is what it it.

   As I sit listening to the earth and its occupants wake, watch the trees and the sky...

  Today's just one of those days. 

   I've had too much wine once in a while, but this evening my thoughts got the best of me and I found comfort in stronger alcohol.

   I'm only human and things get to me sometimes. 

   I'm not always just going to post the upbeat stuff, I'm keeping it real and posting my not so positive stuff because I think we can all relate and life isn't always rainbows, unicorns and butterflies. I have my faults just like everyone else. And I don't always have positive day...