The sun shines, but I don't feel it. It's like a haze of gray, a shadow of the day. It's the weight of the world bearing on my shoulders, but I'm fine, I'm fine...

   I'll carry it through the thick mud because that's what I do and that's what I've always done. Rest is not an option because I'm a fighter, a fighter not just for myself, but for those I love.

   The storms they come as the sun shines and the earth quakes and it's hard to stand, but I may fall but I'll always get back up and I'll hold those I love up before myself.

   I want nothing in this world but for those I love to be happy and healthy. 

   At the moment I don't feel happy. I don't feel like smiling, I just feel down. Cuz when someone I love isn't smiling, neither am I.

   ...And the thought of losing them, makes me want to close myself off from the world and just cry with the skies.

   Home is where my heart is and my heart is where my love is and that is where my breath of life is...

   My lunch break is almost over and I really don't feel like going back inside, but I have no choice. I'm drained from fake smiling at people. I don't feel like talking to people, I just wanna be left alone. But I still have 4 hours to go which feels like an eternity at the moment. I just wanna go home, well more as go to my apartment and shower, get away.

   I wish my truck was fixed so I could just drive for a while, just breathe with the music up.

   My apartment feels so closed in, not mine, not really home...

   Guess I'll end it here for now and get my ass back to work.

   Until next time, smile for me...