Today's been a good day I guess. Kept myself busy being productive, cleaned my apartment and organized to keep my mind occupied.
   Didn't sleep well last night. Nothing new, but dreams were haunting last night, vividly haunting and I woke clutching my pillow and I don't think I've really cried in a long while like I did when I woke from those dreams. One in particular...
   I don't live in the past, but the past can haunt sometimes with the memories and sometimes you just gotta let it roll out and get on with your night and day.
   Although I've made it a priority to put the dreams behind me and not think of them, keep my mind occupied, today I've just felt blah, just not feeling, not really sad, but not really happy either, if that makes sense. I don't really feel like smiling. Just feeling a bit down I guess.
Just one of those days 🤷‍♀️...
   Got everything done and now just chilling here bored, so figured I journal, maybe I'd feel a bit better chatting a bit and getting words out. Don't really know, but I enjoy writing nonetheless.
   It's hot as the devil's asscrack out, so don't really care for being outside. Maybe later tonight if my mind doesn't shut up and I end up without any plans for the night. Not sure if I'm up for sleeping tonight to be honest, I really don't wanna dream for a while...
   Don't know why, but it's like multiple past events hit me all at once in multiple very vivid dreams and it was too much for one night.
   Coffee just tasted blah, food just tasted blah, today just was a blah day. Eh 🤷‍♀️, tomorrow's a new day...
   Fuck the dreams, fuck this temporary feeling, because it's just a day and I'm determined to keep a positive mindset no matter what and tomorrow will be a great day cuz I'm gonna make it a great day 👍.
   Think I'll go find something to do, don't know what, but I don't wanna think at the moment, I need to find something to laugh at, some funny videos or movie or something.
   Until next time, I hope you smile...