Today was hectic, as well as yesterday. Finally was able to start back work yesterday and today. It's been nuts, incredibly busy...

   But I'm glad I'm not sitting at home bored out of my mind sweating and going nuts.

   It was a long day yesterday and today. Yesterday got home and was tired, I fell asleep pretty quick. Staying asleep though, eh, I kept waking up. I'm tired now, but can't seem to fall asleep and I have an early start tomorrow and a long day ahead. Sucks, but what am I gonna do, other than just roll with it. I know I'll be tired enough eventually one of these days, I'll sleep eventually 🤷‍♀️.

   Some of the customers are just irate, others are just mental, some are nice, some are just flat out rude, but some come through telling me about losing everything from hurricane Ida and it makes me feel bad. Especially this old man that came in, he was tryna make jokes and said he was making jokes to keep from crying cuz he lost everything from his house going underwater. Then he just started tearing up and talking about he has to spend money he doesn't have and all he can do is joke about it cuz he doesn't know what else to do, but he just doesn't wanna cry anymore and he kept wiping tears from his old tired eyes and it punched me in the gut. 

I never sit there wishing to be rich with money, I could care less as long as I can pay my bills and get what I need, but in that moment, I wished I was rich in money, cuz hearing these people's stories and seeing their faces, especially that old man's, if I had the money, I'd rebuild their houses, pay off whatever bills they owed and buy them whatever they needed. But I'd do it anonymously because I wouldn't want any thanks or anything from it, other than I'd hope that if one day they're able to help someone in need, they'd do it...

   And I see the faces of some of the coworkers, the tired worn out looks, especially a couple of them. They say nothing about what's going on, they just work and they're nice, always been nice, especially one of them and she looks so tired and I wish there was something I could do for her. But I never pry in anyone's business nor would I know how to help as I'm struggling financially as it is.

   That's what sucks, I wanna help people, but I can't...

   I had another customer with her daughter, looked to be maybe 12 or 13, they were buying moving boxes, cleaning supplies and the little girl had puffy eyes like she'd been crying with her face down and her mom hugged her and she looked like she was about to cry herself and told her daughter that it was gonna be ok, that god was good, that they may have lost the house, but they're still alive and that's what matters. I just felt bad for them, felt sad for them

   It's like being on an emotional rollercoaster ride all day long with different customers and it's exhausting amongst being overly busy...

   But I'm grateful to have a job when there's still people out of work or still can't go back to work.

   I'm lucky to get the opportunity to get overtime and I'm taking it while it's being offered.

   My mind is in so many places at the moment, but hopefully I can fall asleep tonight cuz tomorrow's gonna be another long day and I could use the rest.

  Time to end it here and try to sleep.

   As always, I hope you smile...