Woke today just feeling down. Kinda been feeling that way all week off and on, but this morning just feels extra. I'm glad it's my day off. Wish I had a few days off in a row, but I'm back at it tomorrow.
   Had my mind set on furthering up, but lately it just feels I'm getting the run around each time I ask when the day the training I was told I was gonna get would start. I get told it'd start one day, that day would come then pass, I'd ask again and repeat. So it just feels like I'm wasting my breath.
   I got a bit of a raise, yet everyone did by some living requirement law or some bullshit thing, but checked today what my check will be this week, lol, literally only $4 more than last check. So really hasn't changed although I'm still grateful.
   I like the job I do, but the environment is full of favoritism, miscommunications, unorganization and any effort put in is never good enough on my end. It's draining....
   I wanna move up so I'm not struggling as well as get out of the area I work. I also wouldn't mind trying something new in a leadership position to see if it's something I would like to do. 
   Would love to have a set schedule and day shift hours. These closing shifts are a pain in the ass and it feels like I'm being shit on with them even though I asked for days yet everyone else got what they wanted anytime they asked and I'm not even considered, I get what's left.
   I wake, go to work, get off, it's time for bed, wake, repeat. My day's gone. I hate closing.
   At least they could be fair and switch us around evenly with days and closings.
   Guess I'm sounding like I'm complaining here, maybe I am a little bit. I don't like to complain, not trying to, but I just gotta unload sometimes. 
   Got a Drs apt today, *sighs*, honestly I don't feel like getting dressed and going, don't feel like doing anything. I'm just exhausted. But I know I need to go...
   Don't really know how today's gonna go, but usually fast on my days off cuz it's the next day having to go back to work I'm wanting my off days to be slow for...
   It's supposed to rain again today. I'm so damn tired of rain. Every fucking day it's been raining. 
   I need to straighten up my place, I'm feeling too exhausted and drained to do that to be honest...
   And I'm tired of hearing my fucking neighbor through the walls....
   Guess I'm gonna end it here. Don't really have anything else to talk about. Just a gloomy day.
   Until next time, I hope you smile...