Sitting here listening to the rain. It's the approach of hurricane Ida coming ashore. The sky is gray and the day is full and I'm feeling just like the weather...

   Didn't sleep well, nothing new of course. Headache is still bugging me, I wish it would go away already 😑.

   I don't think the storm is gonna be as bad as predicted, but who knows, you never really know with storms, but I'm not afraid of them. Just ride with them, whatever happens, happens.

   I can hear the winds picking up, it's getting closer. Power is probably gonna go out, usually does during storms. Hopefully it won't be out for too long, or too many days. It's late August and the heat is boil your ass kind of hot.

   I miss my love right now😒...

   Fuck this Covid shit...

   Wish I could cuddle up to him and ride out the storm with him. But, nothing I can do about that🤷‍♀️😒...

   I'm bored as fuck right now, but I'm tired, drained, agitated and just feeling off. Down kinda. Don't feel like smiling, don't feel like talking to anyone.

   Tried to read some funny comics, watch some funny stuff, etc., but just wasn't feeling it 🤷‍♀️. Just don't feel like smiling. Just one of those days I guess.

   I kinda just wanna lay a blanket down on the floor in my room, open the window and just watch Ida pass. I don't have to smile at the world, I don't have to pretend to my daughter I'm ok cuz I don't want her to worry or feel bad when I'm just not feeling my best and don't want to bring her down with me. 

   Maybe I'll fall asleep to the rain, maybe I won't and I'll be content in the howls of the wind and watching the rain beat down like heavy weights against my window and onto the earth...

   Either way, I kinda just wanna feel numb today and I don't want to think...

   At the moment I feel secluded, boxed in, far away even though the ones I love are near. And do you know how hard it is to see someone you love in front of you and all you want to do is pull them in, hold them, kiss them, but you can't? It sucks ass and it kinda gut punches you. Like I said, fuck Covid 😒...

   But anyways, it'll pass...

   Hmm, guess it was just a little band of wind I heard a bit ago. Seems quiet now other than a little bit of rain. But it'll roll through soon enough.

   The news is saying it's a strong Cat 4 and looking at the path, looks like we'll be on the worst side of it. Guess we're in for a ride 🤷‍♀️.

   Just heard another strong gust of wind. Better go charge my juul, gotsta have the juul, lol.

   I'm gonna stop rambling, charge my juul and go chill in my room and watch the storm pass.

   Tomorrow's a new day...

   Until next time, smile for me...