Haven't written on here in a while. Just haven't gotten around to it until now.
   The cold has made its way through. I'm definitely not one for the cold 🥶. Glad I don't have to get out in it.
   Covid decided to make a return, the fucktard. 2nd time having it 😑. Quarantine and more prescriptions like I needed anymore. I feel like a walking pharmacy, it's ridiculous...
   Today's been ok, just finished watching a movie called Freedom Writers. It was a good movie; hit home a bit and had me tearing up.
   Sometimes movies make you think about where you came from and how far you've come...
   And sometimes it takes someone believing in you to believe in yourself. 
   In the movie their English teacher did and funny enough, as a teen, it was my English teacher who believed in me, who uplifted me about my writing cuz I always loved to write and just made me feel good about myself.
   When you're young growing up in bad places, you think a lot of times that that's all there is, you're just surviving, you're not really living.
   My escape was music and writing and drugs and alcohol. But writing, music and writing was how I let out my pain, my anger, my loneliness, etc.. Still is. And sometimes I just write off of inspiration, sometimes doesn't even have to be anything I'm going through, I just write if the mood strikes...
   When you're young though, kids need to feel someone genuinely cares. I think as an adult too...
   The world is a fucked up place, but love is what makes the world beautiful...
   I don't know what the future holds, I know there's of course gonna be ups and downs, that's life, you ride the ride, but one thing is for sure, I'm always gonna do my best to see the positive out of everything, even when times are down because there's always something to be grateful for if you truly look.
   Here I am rambling, but I'm in my thoughts. Nothing new there, I'm always in my thoughts and my day's just feeling meh, just not feeling it today 🤷‍♀️. 
   My friend's down visiting, been down for a week, she has Covid too, so both in quarantine. I should be in an upbeat mood her being here, but I'm off today, just not feeling it, but tryna push through the day. As well as I'm missing my boyfriend, missing cuddling him, being close to him, falling asleep next to him. Damn Covid...
   But anyhow. Guess I'll end it here and go watch a movie.
   Until next time, I hope you smile...