My eyes are heavy and I'm tired, but I can't seem to fall asleep. But that's nothing new. I've had insomnia for years. If it wasn't cold out, I'd probably go for a drive for a while then maybe sit at the park by the pond as my thoughts keep to its hamster wheel. I'd watch the willow trees dance in the breeze and watch the ducks wobble around and giggle at how funny they look.

   The crescent moon was sitting high in the sky earlier this evening when I sat outside during my break at work. I love the moon and I know I've said it plenty of times, but I do, I love the moon.

   Although I'm not one to look too much to the future because it's unknown, but I think about tomorrow and what it may bring. 

   Life has its twists and turns, ups and downs, but it's life and I appreciate life...

   This year's almost gone, it's a bit hard to believe, but then again, the older you get, the faster time seems to move.

   This year has been foul potent rank shit for many people, but hopefully next year will be a better year for everyone. 

   But I truly believe as the saying goes, "what doesn't kill us makes us stronger" and wiser.

   Through every bad decision comes a lesson, through every bad experience teaches appreciation and strength. It's all in how you choose to live. You can either let the bad or negative break you or you can let it fuel you. It's up to you, no one else can choose for you. Your life is yours.

   Our journey leads us to places and people for a reason and at the point in time we're meant to reach. Never sooner, never later, it's in this moment in time. I believe that. 

   It's all in life's design and the steps we take. It's all in how we choose to love and even choose to hate. And hate is pointless senseless act. 

   And sometimes I'll say I hate people, but it's more from hurt and hating a person's actions and character than it truly is to hate them. But hate is an ugly word, but we're all human and we feel it at times, let's be real here. But never let hate freeze your heart and never let it cause pain and negativity towards others. 

   If anything, let love and kindness thrive within you and share that with others. Hate and love can have a domino effect. You share hate, it extends, you share love, that extends too. What do you want to put out into this world? 

   My mind is all over the place tonight/this morning, so I'll end it here for now. 

   Take some time and reflect on the year, get fueled by the pain and downfalls and get inspired and motivated by love and kindness.

   Good night/morning, I hope you smile today...