I feel completely drained today. Probably cuz I didn't sleep any last night on top of the nightmares that's been fucking with my mind from the other night, along with my mind full of thoughts like a non-stop train constantly going.
   The world feels distant, I feel adrift like a balloon in the clouds. Clouds that are gray and gloomy as if rain is to come yet it keeps its distance like the world around.
   There is no smile on this face as I've lost it for a while. Not gone, just lost until the moonlight shines its glow upon my skin again and embraces me with its gentle hug.
   To the distant world the mask is worn like a shield of armor. They see the painted smile, behind, a lack of expression.
   I yearn for the moonlight, but the moonlight is in his shadow and the air is cold even in the heat of the day.
   But I wait for him, for I know he'll shine again because he is the light in the darkness that always comes to shine...
   Sometimes I wish I was a bird so I could fly, fly high above the trees, soar amongst the skies, close my eyes and feel the air hug every part of my skin...
   ...Two doves in a pond, so close yet so far. Close enough to touch yet one dove remains patient for the other... 
   ...So close, yet so far...
   ...One dove swims a little closer, yearning to touch, missing the embrace-
-yet she stills giving space, letting the other dove choose to swim-choose when to come closer.
   Patient dove, waits...
   ...So close, yet so far...
   ...His silhouette calls to her beating heart, her heart craving his embrace, but she feels like he's distant, waiting for the winds to lift him once again...
   ...So she waits, patiently waiting on his healing of weighted wings, craving to fly for him, craving to lift him up. But no, dove sees his strength, knows he'll fly, for her heart has always known so.
   ...So she will wait, patiently wait, as long as it takes...
   ....So close, yet so far...