Gloomy rainy start to the day. Goes with my mood I guess. Trying to hold onto a positive outlook, but my mind is all over the place. 
   Didn't sleep well at all last night. Between the nightmares, my thoughts, my damn sciatica and just not being able to get comfortable, it was a rough night.
   I did however enjoy getting to spend time with my children and my oldest son's girlfriend. We watched a movie and had some laughs over some old pictures he found when they were little. It was a nice evening.
   Learned my daughter is indeed planning on moving out within the next month. As soon as my older son and his girlfriend move into the house they're planning to rent from their uncle. 
It's putting me in a bit of a financial jam having to pay rent on my own now, but whatever makes them happy, I can manage.
   It's back to work today. Days off always seem to fly by. I hate closing, I really do. It's like my whole day is gone. And some days I just don't feel like dealing or smiling at people. Or dealing with their bullshit. Same with a couple of coworkers. 
   Some days, like today, I just wanna go in and not have to talk to anyone or smile, just ring people up if I'm stuck on a register or give people change if I'm not and just do whatever I gotta do work wise without being bothered. But I don't have that option 🤷‍♀️. So I'll suck it up.
   Definitely happy to of finally got my truck back after so long. It felt weird seeing it and driving it again yesterday. I'm incredibly thankful and appreciative to my boyfriend for getting it fixed for me. He's incredibly wonderful. 
   Ugh I can't stop sneezing and I'm a bit stuffy, damn allergies. Don't really feel good this morning, but hopefully by the time I have to go to work, I'll feel better. If not, oh well, just deal with it. Can't afford to miss any days anymore.
I hate the smell of Benzedrex Nasal Decongestant nose inhaler and the burn, but it does open ya up. Thinking about it, I don't like the smell of Vicks vapor rub either, ick, makes me a bit nauseous smelling it, but I'll use it if I have to.
It's always the stinkiest and nastiest tasting meds that seem to help better isn't it. 🤢
   Like for a bad cold, Theraflu tea always worked better for me, but even though I've heard some people like it, I think it tastes nasty.
   One thing I can't stand is NyQuil, just the smell makes me nauseous. I can't even bare trying to swallow it cuz I'll literally hurl it up. Even the gel pills that look like giant donkey size pills, I can't swallow those either cuz I can taste them in the back of my throat and it makes me wanna hurl. Weird huh? If anyone's taking it around me, I literally gotta step away so I don't smell it or I'll gag. Lol, yea, weird...
   I hope it's not raining when I have to drive to work, I can't see well through rain. Again, it's weird seeing my truck in the driveway every time I take my dog out to use the bathroom, but I'm happy to see it. I don't feel stuck or that I'm bothering anyone for a ride. Even though I know my boyfriend didn't mind, I know there's days he's busy at work and he had to stop to take me and then when I get off late, he's there waiting for me even though he's had a long day and is no doubt tired. Now he can finally go home after work and relax and settle in which I'm happy he's able to do because I know working long days is tiring and he's able to relax.
   I really hope today's gonna be a good day. Better yet, I'm gonna say it's gonna be a good day because I wanna have a positive outlook.
   I think I've kinda steered away from that lately. I've been so much in my thoughts and overthinking that I haven't been keeping to that mindset on starting the day on a positive note and I need to get back to that mindset. I do tend to worry about things, but worrying is like a rocking chair, you rock back and forth but get nowhere. Whatever happens, happens and whatever doesn't, doesn't. So be it.
   It's time to start back on the positive mindset and just roll with it.
Life brings the rain sometimes, but the sun comes to shine once again. 
   I think I've written enough for today. It's time for me to get up and get moving.
   As always, I hope you smile today...