Riding The Boogy Oogy Train Of Life


Finding Me

August 15, 2019
I'm afraid
I've been living in fear all my life
Afraid to live, afraid to die
Afraid to simply fade away

I don't want to die in this hell
Without feeling safe
Without feeling loved
I don't want to burn in this hell
But, I'm weakening from the flames

Hello above can you hear me
Are you even there
Goodbye restless and useless 
Guess like everyone else
You were never really there
So I'll quit pretending I'm fine
Quit living in these lies
Die a little more just to breathe 
Soon I'll be free
I'm finding me
I'm finding me
I'm finding me

I'm afraid
I've been living underneath your fingernail
Afraid to speak, afraid to fail
I've been losing myself

I don't want to die in this hell
Without feeling safe
Without feeling loved
I don't want to burn in this hell
But, I'm weakening from the flames

Hello above can you hear me
Are you even there
Goodbye restless and useless 
Guess like everyone else
You were never really there
So I'll quit pretending I'm fine
Quit living in these lies
Die a little more just to breathe 
Soon I'll be free
I'm finding me
I'm finding me
I'm finding me

Break me time after time
To the point you can't break me anymore
Fearing time after time
But you can't imprison me here anymore

I don't want to die in this hell
Without feeling safe
Without feeling loved
I don't want to burn in this hell
But, I'm weakening from the flames

Hello above can you hear me
Are you even there
Goodbye restless and useless 
Guess like everyone else
You were never really there
So I'll quit pretending I'm fine
Quit living in these lies
Die a little more just to breathe 
Soon I'll be free
I'm finding me
I'm finding me
I'm finding me

Hello above you can't hear me
You were never really there
While I was lost in the middle of nowhere
I took the time to find myself
 

In These Dreams

August 15, 2019
Hold my heart in your hands
And tell me what you feel
Is it even real
I'm lost in how to heal
You seem to know me
Hold me in my dreams
Do I misunderstand
My dreams say you feel me

I wasn't trying to call you
You were just there
As if we were sharing dreams
Sharing dreams

Do you feel me like I feel you
Crave me like I crave you
Don't let go
No, don't let go
Of me
In these dreams
In these dreams
Hold me to you
Hold me to you

Lean your cheek to mine
I crave your skin against mine
Can love really heal
I've been walking ...

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Dandelion Stars

July 21, 2019

Isn't it funny
How the sun follows our steps
But the sun doesn't know us like the moon
And the stars are the wishes we've sent
How can it be
We're leaving trails of the tears we've wept
Saying our goodbyes all too soon
Cursing the winds like a toxic scent
I don't think this is how it's meant

All those dandelion seeds racing to the moon
Are of all the wishes I had sent for you
Now they're stars shining high just for you
I hope they send you a love that's right
I hope love holds you until you ...


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Who Are We Living For?

July 2, 2019
Hey you, what are you looking for
In the downpour of the rain
Standing there a little bit insane 
Hey you, what are you crying for
Tryna be what everyone wants
Just to belong, well fuck them all
Losing ourselves with nothing to gain

Hey, you there tryna be perfect
Disguising yourself for the circus
At the end of the day you're not okay
Losing ourselves wasting away

Just a little bit more
Oh
Selling our souls for
Oh
Maybe we'll win this time
Oh
Coming in blind
Oh
We're losing our minds
Oh
Not this time
No
Who are we...

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I Don't Want To

April 30, 2019
The fires burn across the lands
We're here reaching for the other hand
But we're sinking deeper in the sand
Can you feel the dying of our homeland 
I can feel it, but I don't want to
I could cry, but I don't want to

So I close my eyes
Breathing in the smoke from the flames
Knowing nothing will ever be the same
I can feel how love lies
I could ask why, but I don't want to
I could run and hide, but I don't want to

The shadows grow within the darkness
Somehow I made myself a part of this
Sinking deeper into t...

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I Wish I Was Special

April 28, 2019
Throw me to the wolves 
Watch them tear my flesh
Watch me still crawl
Healing in scars

Hold me to the flames
Let the fire burn my flesh
Watch me still crawl
Healing in scars

I wish I was special
I wish I was loved
How many times must I escape
Being buried underground
I wish I was loved
I wish I was enough 
Worth a simple friend's smile
A safe home to stay awhile

Drown me in the river
In the freezing waters I'll shiver
Watch me still rise
Healing in lies

Bury me in the dirt
As my soul hurts
Watch me still rise
Heali...

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Do Our Hearts Even Beat

April 24, 2019
There's a part of us we show to the world
A part of us hidden behind closed doors
Sometimes we just want to let it all go
Shout out loud, I don't give a fuck anymore

When we fall we catch ourselves most of the time
But everyone wants to ride our wings when we fly
When we're losing everything and everyone around
We're left in an emptiness with no one making a sound

It's a little fucked up the way we go down
No one around, no one around 
Falling fast until we hit the ground
Watching everyone fall, everyon...

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Silence of the Dead

April 17, 2019

There's a dirt road in front of me
A storm brewing ahead I see
A million thoughts inside my head
So many things I should of said

I feel broken a little every day
Should of woken in the silence of the dead
But I lost my way
I lost my way
Lost my way, tell me it's gonna be okay
Will it ever be okay?

Okay, okay?

It's a heavy feeling on my shoulders
Tryna keep a straight face, don't fall under
Walking on this dark road alone
I wish this heart would turn to stone

I feel broken a little every day
S...


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Summer Love

March 31, 2019

Fireflies in the willows
Flowers in the meadows
Up above the stars glow
As the moon says hello

Crickets putting on a music show
Frogs echoing their croaks
Night birds singing along
A perfect night for a stroll

This is summer love
Walking in summer love
Hold me close and don't let go
Of your summer love
Summer love
This is summer love
Summer love
Oh, summer love

Clovers beneath my feet
Feeling the summer breeze
Puts my soul at ease
Nature is so free

It's among the trees
In every shade of gree...


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If I Could Call Heaven

March 30, 2019

Sometimes I stay awake all night
Staring at the stars wondering why
Heaven seems to take you all away
While I'm here struggling to stay
I know I try to appear strong
But the world doesn't know my pain
No one cares to know what's wrong
Better if they all stay away

If I could call heaven
I'd tell all of you how much I miss you
That I'm sorry loving me was a curse
If I could call heaven
I'd tell all of you, you were my blessing
That loving me was the worst
I'm sorry I was your curse
But I wish ...


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About Me


Teresa I have a love for writing and reading. I created this website to share what goes on in this strange mind of mine and to express. I'm inspired by the imperfections in our world as those imperfections in humanity and life are what's real and true as well as beautiful. We all have our ups and downs and no matter how young or old we are, rich, poor, where we come from, our hearts beat the same and I think we all are on the same boat of striving for our dreams, love, happiness and hopefully compassion for one another. Thanks for visiting.

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